The Thoughts in me bleeding head! Carl Elizondo
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I can see a light
soooo, after months of a distant echo from my studio, I have finally begun to feel a stir. I can see a dim light coming from the distance, and the ideas are beginning to flow. Writing is a bitch which leaves me always thinking well, is that it? no more ideas or passion to write about? this was the longest so far, from april '10 till now....... WTF!
If I only had more time to record, that woud complete me but I'll take what I get.
in a bit...
Still Buoyant!
still afloat..... holes patched up and headed due north..... the funk is gone and have been in the studio writing, recording & actually feeling better about this new album even though the due date is fast approaching. its amazing how much you can accomplish given a short period of time, as opposed to having all the time in the world and procrastinating. come to find out leaky ships goes back far in the family lineage including a grandfather who went out for a pack of smokes and never came back....
fucking leaky ships.... go figure!
You Tell me...
How do you balance what you have to do with what you want to do?
only enough energy & hours to do one....
so there in is my problem
its getting difficult
not to happy
bullshit
Learning to walk
Lesrning to walk with the added strain, trying to make my way to the studio door to purge...difficult to say at least. counting on me, theyre counting on me, adrift I float out to sea....
resurfacing...
resurfacing.... whew!
Lines
lines when you're young
lines when you're old
the mirror doesn't lie
that's what I'm told
the dark ideas
She called him Christopher Robin
hiding behind a menu wall
With a pirate smile
she made a midnight psychic call
and I tried to throw away it all,
"She should have been mine" I said
as it rained on the floor
I knew she knew I knew
cause I've seen it all before.
you left me banished & floating
out to sea
now you need rescuing only from
no one else but me
I can see from your picture
that youre not really smiling
the sadness in your eyes
says that your inside alone
pictures and shadows of memories
flicker through my brain
splintered lives & ideas
are falling down like rain
wounds
some wounds are far too deep to ever heal
on the surface they seem fine
if you scratch too hard
it starts to flow
and darkness
drips
still fighting with the demons, getting tired
love these lyrics from Shinedown:
"Hello, are you still chasing
The memories in shadows
Some stay young, some grow old
Come alive, there are thoughts unclear
You can never hide"
The memories in shadows
Some stay young, some grow old
Come alive, there are thoughts unclear
You can never hide"
the older I get the more I think about my youth... ah! my youth
so quickly lived and slowly faded as my older years invade my mind with
the ills of age...indeed its hard to day by day
Rollercoaster
so the brain is doing the rollercoaster effect, up one day down another... the downs are affected by lack of interest in my music, my health, money or lack thereof, writers block, the ups are affected by good sleep, Heinekin, codine, good music, work coming in, water, snuff... that list can go on forever. Graham coxon & oasis are a big help... hope this up lasts for a while
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